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familiar twist of jealousy somewhere in her middle; knowing the boy would not
have drunk it for her。
On the heels of that came an unfortable; even startling thought: Had she
wanted to think Jack was to blame? Was she that jealous? It was the way her
mother would have thought; that was the really horrible thing。 She could
remember a Sunday when her Dad had taken her to the park and she had toppled
from the second tier of the jungle gym; cutting both knees。 When her father
brought her home; her mother had shrieked at him: What did you do? Why werent
you watching her? What kind of a father are you?
(She had hounded him to his grave; by the time he divorced her it was too
late。)
She had never even given Jack the benefit of the doubt。 Not the smallest。
Wendy felt her face burn yet knew with a kind of helpless finality that if the
whole thing were to be played over again; she would do and think the same way。
She carried part of her mother with her always; for good or bad。
〃Jack — 〃 she began; not sure if she meant to apologize or justify。 Either; she
knew; would be useless。
〃Not now;〃 he said。
It took Danny fifteen minutes to drink half of the big cups contents; and by
that time he had calmed visibly。 The shakes were almost gone。
Jack put his hands solemnly on his sons shoulders。 〃Danny; do you think you
can tell us exactly what happened to you? Its very important。〃
Danny looked from Jack to Wendy; then back again。 In the silent pause; their
setting and situation made themselves known: the whoop of the wind outside;
driving fresh snow down from the northwest; the creaking and groaning of the old
hotel as it settled into another storm。 The fact of their disconnect came to
Wendy with unexpected force as it sometimes did; like a blow under the heart。
〃I want 。。。 to tell you everything;〃 Danny said。 〃I wish I had before。〃 He
picked up the cup and held it; as if forted by the warmth。
〃Why didnt you; son?〃 Jack brushed Dannys sweaty; tumbled hair back gently
from his brow。
〃Because Uncle Al got you the job。 And I couldnt figure out how it was good
for you here and bad for you here at the same time。 It was 。。。〃 He looked at
them for help。 He did not have the necessary word。
〃A dilemma?〃 Wendy asked gently。 〃When neither choice seems any good?〃